I don’t want to find myself
I want to lose myself

Blow, strong wind
right into my face
Sting my skin with your biting cold
Awaken me from this paralyzing comfort
Strip away the pallor from my cheeks

Drive out of me all the pain
the shame, the memories
Release me, oh release me
from the burden of existence
Empty me so I will be light enough
to be carried away to someplace else
Empty me so I will have room enough
to be filled with something beyond me

Deafen me with your screaming
Deafen me from the sounds of my thoughts
Fill me with tumultuous turbulence
Overwhelm all my senses

Pour, heavy rain
Run down into my eyes
Into my mouth
Run off of my fingertips
Drench me completley
So all I feel is wetness
So all that exists is water
And there is no escape

Fall, tiny snowflakes
Create a powdery white mesh in my hair
Let me feel your soft brush against my face
A tiny pinpoint of coldness as you melt on my hand
I am delighted by your gentle touch
Let me exist solely to be your landing place

Exhilarate me, oh nature
Would you grant me the favor
of allowing me to be captivated by you

Would you let me lay down in a field of grass
and escape into the sky
Or melt into the scent of a flower
Or be carried away into the current of a stream
Or maybe I could float away like a leaf on wind
falling endlessly and never hitting the ground

Or you could make me a butterfly
Or a piece of dust, captured in a sunbeam

Let me feel the grit of sand between my toes
the taste of ocean salt on my skin
I want the waves to carry me so far away
that all I can see is the water and the sky
And then when I look up
to be blinded by the light
of a single star

Forgetting who I am and where I’ve been
Lost in a dream and never awakening
Having disappeared
into the immensity
of the beauty that surrounds me